This is where I'm going to bitch and talk about my personal life, things i like, and don't like so if you don't like it don't Fucking read it :)
You make me the happiest man alive. I can’t wait to see you in June and I hopr that you are ever thing I expect and more. You are so amazing, so sweet and , so genuine. I love you mister
This pass weekend I had a moment of weakness. I thought that I missed you. I thought that I need you. But the truth is I was sad and alone. And I think that is why I have always gone back to you. I mean yeah I loved you but I was alone and what we had was just familiar. Im glad that I finally realize that and now I can move one and keep talking to this amazing guy who I’m really falling in love with on an emotional level and it feels incredible not focusing on the physical. In the gay world it’s all about looks looks looks and for once I don’t have to worry about that as much. Yes we find each other physically attractive but it’s not about sex. Anyways I’m happy and moving on is the best for us both even tho I’m 100% positive you already did and I’m happy for you.
Lately I have been talking to a man who lives in Boston and he’s cool and all but he’s not you. You know how they say you don’t know what you have till its gone well I now understand what that means. I’m in love with a man that I have treated like crap and that will never forgive me for the way that I treated him. I hate that It took me 2 years to finally realize this. I know that me and you most likely will never be together again but I will always love you and will always have you on my mind and in my heart. I should have just been a man and delt with things as they happened and not have put you second to everything else. I love you Cameron
P.s. Mr snowman misses you